My Relationship With Drama

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 Ah drama and me, we go back a long way. Drama has been a part of my life for such a long time now it almost seems normal, almost. 

For the purpose of complete honesty I used to have a love for drama. In my teenage years it was almost like a drug to me, I got a strange kind of high when whatshername was saying stuff behind my back or my crush was acting like a dick and giving off mixed signals. My relationship with drama continued on throughout my teenage years, still giving me that delicious high. Drama would come to me in every form it could think of: bad friendships, bad relationships, family issues and so on. 

Then came the shift, when I reached my 20s like most users the thing that used to give me such a thrill, such a high was slowly draining me, taking much more than it could ever give back. Which was when I decided to quit, to cut anything and everything from my life that was causing me drama. Which of course, in turn, caused more drama but this time it wasn't the same. I felt no thrill nor did I feel like it was draining me, I had become cold and disconnected from it. I can't say for sure that my reason for suddenly going cold turkey was just because of the damage it was causing me or was it that I had just grown up and could now see how childish my addiction was?

But now drama is back in my life in full force (I won't go into detail, too long, too complicated, too stupid) and I'm finding it hard to disconnect. I'm not getting the thrill or the high just the exhaustion and feeling like I'm being drained. So what to do? Allow drama to go back to mentally and physically draining me? Nah, not this time, sorry drama. 
 
Instead I am going to treat this drama like a blemish,it may all be all red and horrible and ugly but if I acknowledge its existence and then ignore it then in time it will fade. I can then focus on using preventative treatments so that it doesn't happen again. I'm not saying that it will be easy just like when you have a spot, drama is hard to ignore but I know it's going to better for me if I do. 


"After every storm there is a rainbow" 


I'm sorry if this post seemed a little strange and cryptic I guess what I want people to take away from this it is that drama will always rear its ugly head but it's best to just ignore it the best you can and get on with your life. 

Thank you for reading!



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  1. Ella, you are amazing. I seriously love the fact that you can admit that you were addicted to drama, as I think most of us are as teenagers! I'm sorry it's back rearing it's ugly head. You know I am here for you if you ever want to talk! You just stay positive and do what you do and I'm sending you all my good vibes my beautiful friend! XO -Kim

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    1. Aw thank you Kim, yeah I think most of us are the same when we are teens, addicted to silly drama. Thank you Kim you're such a wonderful friend and I'm so lucky to have you! Love you millions!!

      Ella xx

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