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Yes, this post is a little overdue but hey. So after years of wanting one, at the end of March I got my first tattoo! I've always loved tattoos, been fascinated by them, so I knew that eventually, one day, I would get one. I thought I would share a little bit about the process, the pain, the aftercare and why I chose this particular image to be tattooed on my body for the rest of my life. 

The Process 
It's a dreary, last day of March and it looks like it's about to rain any minute but I booked this tattoo a month ago and I wasn't about to miss it because of some bad weather. So at 1 in the afternoon I head into the tattoo parlour for my appointment. My heart is beating so loud I half expect the fairly packed shop to hear it. My palms are sweating so much that I'm surprised I was able to hold the iPad I was handed (which had my forms that needed filling out before my tattoo on it). I am terrified. I know this is what I want and I've researched and prepared for it but still the fear has a strong hold over me. But Dan's presence makes the fear manageable.

I meet my tattoo artist and he goes through the procedure (is that the right word?) he asks me if this is my first tattoo (I guess I wasn't hiding my fear as well as I thought). He places the transfer on my arm, lowers it with my guidance to where exactly I want it. Then away he goes. 

As my tattoo is small and fairly simple I knew I wouldn't be sitting there for hours, Dan is sitting just outside of the room (I think there may be a rule where a person with you can't be too close) but as I am so scared I don't think to ask. But being able to see Dan is a great source of comfort, he alternates between looking at my tattoo being done and looking at my face to see if I am OK. 

After around 40 minutes (time seemed to stop having any meaning and I have to ask Dan how long it took) my tattoo is finished! My tattoo artist cleans my tattoo, wraps it in cling film, goes through the aftercare process, all the dos and don'ts and I try my hardest to listen and stop my brain from yelling I HAVE A TATTOO!! 

Tattoo when it was first done!


The Pain
This is the topic that seems to interest people the most when they talk about tattoos and indeed the question I got from everyone is "did it hurt?" The answer? Yes of course it did, it's needles going into your skin BUT it did not hurt as much as I expected. The best description of the pain I can give is that it feels like a hot cat scratch, of course I appreciate that my tattoo is small and  therefore probably hurt less in comparison to a tattoo that has more detail and took longer. The outline of the mask only really hurt when it was near the bottom, closer to the inside of my elbow. The most painful bits were the parts that needed filling in like the eyes, mouth and so on. I have definitely had worse pains and I was easily able to manage the tattoo pain.  

The Aftercare 
By the time I leave the tattoo shop I am buzzing and it's pouring with rain. I head home and wait two hours before taking the cling film off and giving it a wash with lukewarm water and anti- bacterial soap, a bit of blood and excess ink comes off. For the next five days I wrap my tattoo in cling film when I go to bed but I leave it unwrapped throughout the day. For the next two weeks using antibacterial soap I clean the tattoo and after it's clean and dry I use E45 cream to keep it moisturised. Throughout the first week when cleaning my tattoo bits of scab and excess ink come off but this seems to stop soon enough. I keep my arm out of the bath for 6 weeks to stop it getting saturated which is very annoying but oh well. Now that it's fully healed I keep it moisturised using Lush's Dream Cream and make sure that I put sun cream on it when it's sunny out, especially in this heatwave the UK is going through. 

Dream Cream is great for tattoos once they've fully healed!


People's Reactions 
Tattoos are things that divide people and can bring out strong opinions, luckily I've not had a mob come after me because of mine, yet. My parents did not want me to get a tattoo but they appreciated that I am 25 and can make my own decisions with my own body. Still my Dad was not impressed with it and hardly mentioned it, my mum said "it was alright for a tattoo". My friends said they liked it and Dan loves it. Co-workers ask me what it is and what it means and give polite smiles, clearly not understanding but bless them for trying. The kids I work with have told me all kinds of new information never known to me before like "they last forever you know" and "it'll look different when you're old". But as with anything to do with my own body, no one else's opinion matters but my own and I love my tattoo.

Why This Tattoo?
If you've been in my presence for longer than 30 seconds then you'll know I love Studio Ghibli, in particular the films of Hayao Miyazaki. My tattoo is the mask of the character No Face from Spirited Away. No Face is a character who I relate to very strongly. To me he is someone who wants to belong and have connections with people yet finds it hard to know how to act when he is placed in situations with people, this resonates with me and my social anxiety. No Face is also a character who doesn't quite know his identity yet, he isn't fully sure of himself, or who he is and where his place is in the world is. These are feelings that I deal with on a daily basis and this tattoo is a reminder to not dwell on those feelings, to just accept them and work towards becoming the best version of myself I can be. On a less deep level the tattoo also represents my love for Studio Ghibli and Japan and my admiration for Hayao Miyazaki. I owe so much to Miyazaki's films as they have got me through some of my worst times and have been there at some of my best. 

Tattoo all healed!



I love my tattoo so much and know I'll be getting a few more in the future. I hope you enjoyed reading this post and that it was helpful if you're considering getting a tattoo. Do you have any tattoos? What was your first tattoo experience like? 

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Music is such an important part of my life. I know this is the case for a lot of people but for me music is such a blessing that I honestly don't know what I'd do without. There's just something so empowering about putting on a song of your choice and connecting with it. I've put these songs into a Spotify playlist so you can check them out and hopefully find something you'll fall in love with.

1. And She Was- Talking Heads 
2. Whole Of The Moon- The Waterboys 
3. This Is What Makes Us Girls- Lana Del Rey 
4. Let's Dance- David Bowie
5. Exit Wounds- Placebo

6. Waking The Witch- Kate Bush
I am really interested in the subject matter of this song as the witch hunts is something that both angers me beyond believe yet still fascinates me. The song follows a woman being hunted as a witch and are going to drown her to see if she'll sink or float. 

7. Leave A Trace- CHVRCHES
8. It's The End Of The World As We Know It- R.E.M.
9. Blood Makes Noise- Suzanne Vega
10. Cam Ye O'er Frae France- Steelye Span 
11. Ring Ding Dong- SHINee
12. Which Witch- Florence and the Machine
13. Silk- Wolf Alice 
14. Growing Up- Peter Gabriel 

15. Dakara Hitorijiyanai- Little Glee Monster
This is the ending song for the series of My Hero Academia, this song has such a special place in my heart as it was playing everywhere when Dan and I were in Tokyo. It wasn't until we came home and watched the series of My Hero Academia that we figured out what it was. So now it always reminds me of walking around Shibuya and Harajuku every time I hear it.

16. Signed, Sealed, Delivered- Stevie Wonder     
17. Rhiannon- Fleetwood Mac
18. The Tide- Pale Waves
19. Stranger Than Earth- Purity Ring
20. Big Yellow Taxi- Joni Mitchell
21. The Widow- The Poozies 

22. I Grieve- Peter Gabriel
This is one of Peter Gabriel's most emotional songs. It's all about the feeling of grieve and pain after losing someone and the fact that after loss life does carry on even if you don't want it to. 

23. Love Is Music- Nick Harper
24. Somebody Else- The 1975
25. One Little Victory- Rush
26. Follow You, Follow Me- Geneis
27. Songs From The Wood- Jethro Tull 
28. Survivor- 2WEI
29. Fool For Love- Lord Huron
30. More Than This- Roxy Music
31. Labyrinth- Mondo Grosso
32. I've Grown Accustomed To Her Face- My Fair Lady Soundtrack
33. National Anthem- Lana Del Rey
34. Heaven and Hell- Black Sabbath 
35. Piece Of My Heart- Janis Joplin 
36. Autumn In New York- Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong
37. The Feeling Begins- Peter Gabriel 
38. Oh, What A Circus- Evita Soundtrack
39. Prisoner- The Weekend ft Lana Del Rey

40. Shinzo wo Sasageyo!- Linked Horizon
Why yes, I have included the opening song to the third series of Attack On Titan. It's just such a motivating song even if I can only understand about a quarter of it.

41. Colours- Halsey
42. The New Life- The Waterboys
43. This Picture- Placebo
44. Gates Of Babylon- Rainbow
45. The Bewlay Brothers- David Bowie

46. Helena- My Chemical Romance 
I'm not ashamed to say that I still listen to My Chemical Romance. I was a bit obsessed with them as a teenager, maybe a little too much, as in creepily too much. But they did make some good music that people seem to forget because they were slapped with a label that they didn't ever really want. 

47. To Love Somebody- Nina Simone
48. Golden Years- David Bowie
49. Mother- Pink Floyd
50. Joga- Bjork





So there are 50 songs that I love I hope you find something new to listen to and that you enjoyed this post! Do you like any of these songs? What are some songs you love? 

Maybe I'm jumping the gun with this post, because we've had some warm weather here in the UK but no doubt it will be cloudy and rainy again in no time. But today I'll be sharing with you some of the outfits I have been/will be wearing throughout spring and summer. I've tried to link everything I could find if you want to check any of these pieces out. 


Outfit 1


Dress- Dorothy Perkins 
Necklace- Gift 
Shoes- Primark

This outfit is something I wear in order to pretend that I am a grown up, when I want to look and feel like I've got it together (yeah, we all know that's not true). I love how sophisticated and pretty it is, making it perfect for a posh lunch or to wear to work if you want to look summery but still professional. 


Outfit 2


T-shirt dress- Tobi
Shorts- Primark
Trainers- New Look 
Sunglasses- Topshop

This outfit is the complete opposite to the last as it's very casual and laid back. This is something I can just throw on and relax in. The high waisted shorts are so comfortable and the trainers mean I can walk around for hours and not have achy feet.  Shout out to my fiancĂ© and photographer Dan who you can see in my glasses!


Outfit 3



Dress- ASOS
Boots- Doc Martens
Earrings- Topshop
Ring- My engagement ring

I feel like a cross between Kate Bush and Stevie Nicks in this dress, it's so elegant and comfy. Maxi dresses are perfect for when it's warm but I don't feel like baring it all. I love pairing a dress as sophisticated as this with a chunky pair of Doc Martens to give it a tougher touch.

Outfit 4



Playsuit- New Look
Ankle Boots- Doc Martens (thrifted) 
Sunglasses- Topshop
Earrings- Gift

Playsuits are perfect for the warm weather as they look so elegant but are really comfy and you can just throw them on and go. I added a few boho touches like these silver earrings and these pretty beaten up ankle boots. 


So these are the outfits I'll be wearing throughout spring and summer. Did you have a favourite outfit? What are you going to be wearing during the warmer months? 

There are some times in life when I want to tap into the witch part of my personality, I feel this part of me is empowered, fearless, at one with nature. It's when I remember (for want a of a better term) this part of myself that I feel at my most confident. During these times I like to listen to certain music, this music helps me reconnect with that part of myself. It also helps me when I'm practising the craft, by adding to the mood and it helps me create. These albums may not necessarily be about witchcraft but for me personally they tap into that aspect of myself, plus they are just great albums. They also help with my creativity so I'll often pop them on when I'm writing, drawing, etc. 

Hounds of Love- Kate Bush
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Kate Bush just screams empowerment and Hounds of Love is my personal favourite album of hers. The second half of the album known as "The Ninth Wave"tells the story of someone who is kept from drowning in water by their past, present and future. The album really helps ground me and keep my focus on everything and nothing all at once. 


Songs From The Wood- Jethro Tull
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Although Heavy Horses is my favourite Jethro Tull album, Songs From The Wood taps into my witch more. It reconnects me to the world and reminds me of my love of nature. Every time I listen to it I want to go into the woods for a long walk. 


Dream Harder- The Waterboys 
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Trying to pick just one of The Waterboys albums is so difficult but I had to go with Dream Harder. I find it such an empowering album. It's heavily influenced by neopaganism and was a great comfort to me growing up as I went to a Church of England school yet neither I or my family were Christian. This made me the subject to a lot of scrutiny.  Dream Harder reminds me to accept and embrace all parts of my personality. 

4- Peter Gabriel
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Will I ever write or talk about music without mentioning Peter Gabriel? Probably not. Peter Gabriel's fourth solo album has been one of my favourite albums since I was young. Every time I listen to it I feel so spiritual and I use it as a tool to get my creativity flowing through me. 

These are just some of the albums that I listen to when I want to practise the craft or just want to reconnect to myself. I would like to point out that you don't have to listen to any type of music to consider yourself a witch, you could be practising while banging out 50 Cent's In Da Club and it wouldn't make it any less valid. 


Do you like any of these albums? What music do you listen to while practising or simply to empower you?